lOokin in my life

lil619chick @ 2005-05-10T20:42:00

2005-05-10T03:46:45Z

dAnG itS bEen a mInThA.....................sO waT hAve i'Ve bEeN doin.............shut nothin really just tryna gRAduaTE ya knO....

tOdAY gOt thOse L'z....oO yEss.....aLrEAdy gotta whip so heY all i need now is insurance......

uMM on SAt I got thESe I love just aint got nothin to wear wit em..o well i'll find sumthin

ummm dang not too much to say my life is str8 so newho hawler at ya girl

ugly flick but o well....

lil619chick @ 2005-04-11T22:45:00

2005-04-11T06:05:25Z

hEy....yea yea i guess i'm back its been a mintA..but i'm here....

//whats been goin on in my life......lets sEe

//SAt went to L.A to get my prom dREss...so thats mean prom dress wit no date

//Friday i had my senior exhibtion.....i was so nervous....but i'm glad its ovA

//hmm a church boy wants to get wit me...<<<GOOD THANG..thats what i need in my life a church boy..

uMM....my life is str8..

I just need to become closer to God...Like i was when i was first got saved

I let go of all the dudes i use to talk to....cuz i need gettin on a higher level wit Christ and I dont need any bOyz gettin in the way of that..so I have to let go of some folkz go...yaW did i mean

man there is friends i need to get rid of as well like the ones i hang out wit at skoo....

and tonite i went to church and the speaker witch was one of my friends spoke to me.....she said "if u notice that ur friends dont call you like they use to and ur relationship is just not the same...its because u have sumthin inside of you...witch leadZ to that higher and better relationship with Christ...and God has a plan for you.

because man i'm goin through that rite now..my friends just dont act the same....but now i kno why....and i thank God for that too...sO

yEa...I pray for my enemies even if I dont kno who they are....I just pray for em...I'm sTArtin to look at certain situations different in a more Saved way....

GUyz i'm sorry if yall dont kno what i'm talkin bout...but this is how i feel.....sO yea

TO ALL THE PEOPLE THAT DONT LIKE ME....I GOT MADD LUV FOR YA IN JESUS NAME.NO MATTA THE SITUATION..NO MATTA WHAT YOU SAY TO ME OR Did TO ME..JUST KNO THAT I WILL ALWAYZ CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR YOU......

i dont care if yall think i sound like a punk but.....i'm saved and I represent CHRIST.....and thats what rEal Christ like folkz do...

wEll i'm outa here hawler

a fLIck in mY nEW lOuIS Vuitton glAsSEs wOw look at that 4 hEad!!!haha

somenite

2005-03-13T00:21:58Z

OO bOy.....

lasnite me and the 2 homegurlz went to a step shoW..@ Mt.mIghetto(mt.miguel)

and afta the step show ..those darn east niggaz was clacked a mollyz....

Me and the homegirl was just talkin and all u heard was clack clack boom...and we was gone in tha forces...i felt like i had just did the 200...man...i saw my life flash b4 my eyez sike naw...

then i we was leavin out tha parkinlot....I had saw that one guy(nonames)..by the police and it was like a movie in slow motion I looked out the window to get that one last look...and he was just shakin his head...I was like AwW...we havent even spoke toeachotha in a min so that made it worst...that coulda been my last goodbye...But it wasnt he called me 2day..I was happy that he was alrite*smileZ*.....so yea that was my nite.......

today I dont kno what I'm doin hope its sumthin fun of course

Flickz of me n sum of the homies at skoo yestAday...

<<<mE and shAkarAmE n T-bird

lil619chick @ 2005-03-11T12:27:00

2005-03-11T04:31:04Z

Ok...I'm back in business...mygrandpa got the laptop fixed and he bought a new one....so now this one is mine.....I know yall dont care but o well....

man i've been on that musiq souldchild for like a week now....thats all i've been listenin to..thats my comfort music ya feel me.....I really do not like my life at the moment and hopefully that will change but i doubt it....

this one boy that thinks i'm talkin to em..just wont catch the hint.....I'm bOo off you..and i heard that he just turned 17...i was like whoa i thought blood was tunrin 18....soO now I'm supA bOo..I mean wouldnt yall catch the hint if someone told you that they was choppin it up wit anotha lil thang....and man tell me why the one boy be hangin out wit tha boy i was talkin to...I was like o really....the one that thinks i'm talkin to em be tellin me what they do every weekend..sO thats ovA wit that one boy i was feelin i dont kno what happened....

bEst of luck to em in his future flingZ...............

well i'm bout to go get started on that good ol senior protfolio of mine....halwer

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2005-03-05T19:43:01Z

O gosh guyz i'm on lockdown again...........gEez i tell ya...juat because i messed up in one class..and now i'm takin it in nite skoo...sOo its the weekend and every1 keeps callin me to see if i wanna hang out...but NO i cant...Dang i cant wait until i graduate...I wont have to put up with this nemore...

but ima try to get out tho dont trip....

O yea i cut my finger bad....i was cuttin an apple and it rolled away then i cut my finger it was deep and it hurts like....man it still hurts...

uMm on thurs i found out that the newboy at my skoo wants to gigG..he str8 and all but i'm boo off of the nigGas for a min..specially the ones that go to my skoo..

guyz i mite not be on lj for a min..because my lil sister wasted water on my laptop and now it wont cut on..and i refuse to use my other slow computer..but i'll try to get on even if it does take 10min to get to lj.com..lol......................hawler

lil619chick @ 2005-02-27T23:12:00

2005-02-28T07:38:32Z

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....... Ook....uMm KeOn is no longer talkin to ne1....the dude that i was talkin to I think blood hate me...and i dont even kno1...But aY u kno wat they say...Its nothin...niggas come and go....specially(yes thats how i talk) when you're in highschool.....

mAn this dude i sort of kinda use to talk to is tryna gigg again it was funny how he called out the blue i alwayz get stuckw/the playerz ut he sayz he aint no playa i'm like yeaAa.. I aint no dumb female i dont fall for stuff like that...

So enuff about that.....On sAt i went to the parade...and Raven was there...she is a lil ugHh chunky...but maybe it was just me that saw that...but she is pretty..and really outgoin.....aFta the parade I went to West Covina with my dance group......We must of sTayed in the most nicest hotelz....sO we danced once on Sat there then 3 different times on sunday in front of different groupz...I was so tired....and still am.....I spent 40 dollarz in 2 dayz....I have no idea wure it went...lol

a bAD flicK of Raven

aInt got one dont care bout one eitha

2005-02-25T04:49:16Z

OmG....my grAnny is bout to get on my last nerve and thats real....she is on that brazy...she really think i aint graduatin....because of one class....

i'm like blood i'm in niteskoo takin the class up so bick it.....my momz aint even trippin cuz she got faith in me my ol negative "you're not gradiatin" granny dont...i aint proven nada to her.....for get blood right now...thats how i feel....

~sO any who today mi madre picked me up early today from skoo since she had a short day from work....then we went to get our nails done (i dont like fake nailz,thats why i got minez done)and our eyebrowz I really needed that...afTa that i went to go sign up for gay nightskoo....but that was the fluke now i have to go somewere far for night skoo...bummer <----white word..lol....

~me and momz went to sizzler and ate...and i talked her ear off since i never really get to see her...

aY if yOu stay in daygo and feel like gettin up early in the morn on sat go to the heritage day parade Raven sYmone suppose to be there.....O yea i'm dancin in it..if my strange granny lets me...

whoz_not_down <------ thE homie he neW go check out his journal...hawler

lil619chick @ 2005-02-23T21:28:00

2005-02-24T05:41:51Z

oOO....nO..its official i'm falling for a daygo nigGa....yes i said it...

me out of all people..the girl that always talks about how wack these dayhoe niggas are..

and now look i'm fallin for one well i already kinda did i'm just fallin more....I dont think i should told yall that...lol....but o well i cant help my feelingz....he like the first dude that i actually fell for like fA real fa real...anyothA time my feelings be fake...sHh dont tell my X'z that....

mY new fOne....well i'm gettin it on friday..yAy!

lil619chick @ 2005-02-19T20:16:00

2005-02-20T05:02:51Z

UMm still on that good ol lockdOwn..but who cares daygO sucks nEwayz...and its funny how my "homegurls" havent even called me yEt...they dont kno i'm on lockdown...sOme friends I got....

//Ook look i got this "friend" who likes this one bOy but she doesnt think he likes "her" back even thought they say they're talkin....I mean he calls "her" or what not...

but its like he never wants to see "her"...he's always with his friends....sOo uMm i dont kno what to tell "her"....she alwayz ask him "do you really want to talk then take it to the next level, tell me now so i will know if i'm wastin my time or not"....but he never really responds back...wHat is that suppose to mean?...sOo do yall think "she" should just let him go and let em do his thang?..Or trY to work it out <---HElP "heR" out

//OOk Prom I dont care that I have a date anymore....sOo I guess I will be goin to L.A next weekend to get me some material for a dreSs..

//Man right nOw it seEmz like i ait goT no1...Cept fOr My fAther---->GOD.....

THE only thingS i rEally cAre aboUT..rIght nOw...wEll not reAlly my cEll..

aNd of courSE my lil sIs n bRo...MOmz..gRanny(not at the moment)..dAd u bOo...gRandpA...rEllYz and sTeps oF prAise..

dAyGo n niGgaz cAn kIss my hIgH yElla ...............

yAwDA yAWdA

2005-02-18T07:59:30Z

O gOSh On LOCk down again..

Yes thats right on lockdown again....Ookay i'm tOo old to be on lockdown....and i'm just about tired of the lady i stAy with

yea I kno she my granny and she been takin care of me since i was knee high to a ant..but right now i dont care...

i'm ready to move and go stay with my moms..she too far and i dont kno how i would get to skool...

my granny talkin bout i cant go nowure or do nada until june.....I was like ur brazier den batman(in my head)...i cant dance with my

group..man ima miss em......DAng man it was one grade that messed me up and i had brought up like 4 otha grades....but no she wanna act like i aint graduatin

i'm like blood i'm graduatin calm down....but if i woulda said that she woulda took my cell...so i was on hush mode...

man i hope my mom can get me off...

//dAng man aint that many niggas to go around in daygo that suckz.....ur only lucky if ur mixed or got a big buTt......hMm ...w/e i quit tryin....

I mean i aint gone lie i got my eYe on one nigga....and i woulda mind lettin em be my main squeZe...YawdidImean....bUt i dOnt knO..

_jessybolo <--- kNOwz eM but she mite nOt have an idea on who i'm talkin bout..hehe

FlicTures oF me I wAS bOred

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2005-02-15T04:21:34Z

TODAY FReAKiN SUCkED FoR Me Yo!!

nO vAlentinE fOr the 17th yEar in A rOw..iTs nAda......LiFe gOes oN

dAng I kNo eRrbOdy gEttin theY bARs 2niTe..lol

I hOpe yAll hAd a gOod V-DAy thO fA sHO

yEa sOo uMm.....I dont hAve a maIn sQueze and riTE nOw I kinda wAnt 1...wEll i take thAt bAck

i want atlEast a lil cHa cHa yAwdidimeAn..

O mY gOsH................I Need A Prom(May 21) DatE....grAnny keep buggin me bout a dREss..cant pick a drEss color

unleSs i knO who mY dAte is sO wE cAn maTcH.....wHat am I gOne dO

tHRoW bAck fLictURe(picture)..I tOok last yEAr...

>>.....

2005-02-13T04:32:52Z

aY yO.........I Got a jOb at B wOrld a.k.a sea world...finally...my first job and i'm 17 years old....mAni took a drug test and they cut a grip of my hair i was like whOa put some of that back.....my mom said one lady came out the room teary eyed..lol

first paycheck is goin to some J'z.........

// toDay i went to go get that job

//me momZ and lil brO went to go eat @ some mexican place

//went to the mall got some icy whites low tops(since i already had the hightops) which are no longer white lol.... O yea thats fresh white forces

//got cursed out by momz because they was 70 buddahz......

//went to the rellyz house for a get together.....Still here

//later on goin to the bowlin alley at 12am wit some of my church fOlkz since the homegirls be flukin aint got time for that..

//uMm thats bout it...i'll update later on somethin exciting

tERry you shouldA went...yOu kno u woulda got that job!!!! well i dont kno if you did or nOt

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2005-02-11T09:01:43Z

wEll....ThuRz.....my skoo had its homecoming game against Uni some wack white skoo.......WE wOn!!!!

then after that all the black seniors went to the dennyz in C-mOnt....its was gay cuz it seemed like everybody was gettin into fights with their boyfriends and girlfriends....and yall know me i had no1 to fight with...i was on the phone talkin to my play bro Kyle......then after that me and the homegirls left......

and we was at this boy name ******* house some1 i use to talk to....i was like whoa what we doin here....the 3 homies talking bout T-bird gotta go home i'm like well how ima get home..i stay in paradise hills and we in lincoln.........sO the homegirl's boyfriend wateva he is to her took me home...cuz i was bout to be the 5th wheel..........................................

*mY THOUgHTS*

aY if i was to leave would any1 miss me???????....

I be feeling like that alOt..i mean if i was to leave aint gone be alot missed.........i'm just mE Keontez......I'm not the 4.0 student...i mean dang i can hardley keep a c- in math,i'm not the #1 track sTAr at my skOo i'm not that girl that walks into a mall and all the niggas say hOt da*n...and i aint the kid that every1 says gOsh i wish i had a daughter like that....sOo wat will be missed about me if i was to just leave?

lil619chick @ 2005-02-06T22:07:00

2005-02-07T06:28:31Z

hMm....SaT: Went to tha mall....*wAck*......then later on that night the 3 homies stopped by...........then some mO homies came by.....*PaRtY*...sike

naw...cOulda been thO.....man the homies wUre showin eacthA different sex pOsitions i was like whOa...i knO nOthing about that....lol....

ThE 3 hOmies Oolivia sTeve and sHakara

anD heRE is mE....dUH!!!

nO nigGa dRAma....yES!!!......hEre is hOw i feel about em *mIdDle finGer* tO tha dayGo niggAs

dang i'm bad

2005-02-04T05:39:08Z

wEll 2day i tOok my cAr for a sPin since granny wasnt hOme.....lOl......nO l'z...or nEthing....I tOld my grandpa i was leaving

i guess he thought i was playin..so i started up the engine said bye he said bye back.....then i backed out the drive way.....TEll me why i passed right by a cOp..

i gOt scAred........bUt thats it reAlly...i'll update latER.....O yEa No niGga dRAma....yEaH!!!!!

A fLiCk i tOok...

yOu'll be alRight

2005-02-01T07:59:03Z

Man its seems like everyone is goin through something in there lives....right nOw.....like myself.....but all i can do is prAy that the situation gets better...and try not to wOrry bout it.....and knOw that Gods got it under control....

SoO here is a sOng for you guYs that are gOing thrOUgh....

You Be Alright Lyrics

by Musiq Soulchild


[Verse 1:]
So many people are on a search to find
Within their days for that place
Within their minds to hide 
And dump the load of this worldly life
And the things that it can make you feel and do
Just to pass away your time

[Chorus:]
But you be alright
Cause if you just hold on 
Be strong (you) 
You be alright 
Yes you will (yeah)

[Verse 2:]
People have a tendency
To think to themselves that they're the only ones
Going through more things than anyone else
But oh, I bet you'll beg to differ
If you would just consider the bigger picture
Cause then you would see that most people go through
The same things that you do in life

[Bridge:]
Just take a good look around
Look at the things and all the people
People that you see cause
We share a joy, we share a pain
So it doesn't matter at all
Ohh, were all the same

[Bridge:]
Don't think that you're the only one
Cause you be alright
See I know things look real hard now
It's gonna work out somehow
Problems may come problems may go
Just as long as you know                               <<<<<I have to remember this verse!!! REAd tHIs

fRiends.....

2005-01-31T07:19:59Z

//Man lastnight i was out with the homegirls..and the otha homegirl was at home and she told me if i got bored to call her.......soOO i called bloOd.....and was like are you still gone come out and she said her mom said it was toO late for her to go out............

sOooo tell me why the lil play brother saw her lastnight with this boy i guess she talkin to they was all at the homeboys house......it was like hours after i had called her

THE MAJOR FLUKE..HuH????

man I swear my "friends" are a little fake

DEf of my homegurls=gurls that put niggas that they dont even go with b4 their own close homegirls

always fluking for a nigga,lying to their own friends

///dang first it was the nigga problems nOw its my oWn homegirls.....what is the world coming to??

I'll be happy when June 17th come....I wOnt have to see them anymOre

sOoo i'm loOking for NEW REAL friends

lil619chick @ 2005-01-30T14:01:00

2005-01-30T22:11:28Z

THis sOng sOunds like the situation i'm in....wEll sOme of it....

Forthenight Lyrics

by Musiq Soulchild


Let's pretend for one night, I'm the gurl in your life
And we do the things that lovers do
All the loving u like 
I give it to you just right
Theres nothing less than special when it comes to you
See what we have is understanding
That works so well for how we are
Cause neither of us has the heart to fall in love all over again

[Chorus]
Even though I'm not your gurl and I know you're not my man 
But let's just act like it's that way tonight
Now I know u got your friends and you know I got some too
But let's just act like you're my mAn tonight

TODAY I GOTTA DANCE WITH MY GROUP STEPS OF PRAISE............AT 4:30

uHh......

2005-01-29T22:44:39Z

Last night i went to my skoO'z b-bAll game we played against scRipps.....we wOn!!!!! U.C yOu KnO...then i sAw my ex ....bLaH..his curls gOt long..lOl

THis morning arOund 10 i went to dance practice because we got to dance 2morrow.....gOt home at 12....then cleaned up my house because thats what i have to do if i wanna leave later On......

tOday i'm doin something just dont know what yeT....prOlly something with my homegirls.....

bUt i dont knO what to weAR....hMm.......i mite weAr this.. wit my scrunchy sOcks..thAts my style

OoOr thIS....

blah......

2005-01-28T04:37:55Z

first semester is over finally...that means i'm gettin closer and closer

to graduation.....BUT...I still dont know what i really want to do.............I might go to the airforce////Just go to southwestern...since i'm not a 4 year college bOund girl...////mOve to Temecula with my aunt and go to school//////<<<<<<that one because i hate daYhOe.....and the people in my house get on my last nerve...

2MoRrow.........nOthing to do....iTs daYhOe dUH=bOring

gO here.......... http://www.the-tape.com/

hmM......

2005-01-25T00:42:59Z

mAn i've been complainin boUt these niggas tOo much sO let me stOp...cuz i kno i'm gettin on all my readers nerves..shute i'm gettin on my own nerves....

aNy whO...mY life is whatevA as of now i mean i dOnt have the relationship with my moms that i would like to have..all i do is get money from her and then gone bout my buiss its watevA.....i got a grip of skoo work since this is the last week of the semester..and i'm a senior..cant pLay wit the gRades..

I heard sOme triv 2day bout me and my girls...my lil grOup at skoo...i guess people think we some lil undAcover hOes....i was like whOa....KeOntez aInt...i cant speak for all the homies though cuz i dont kno wat they be dOin..yawdidimean...they all been keeping secrets from me...why?..whO knows

**mY thoughtS**...I was thinking.....dO all my black people think that its right for latinos..mexicans...tO say "nigGa"..i mean its just a lil weird to me...alOt of asians say that word as well...and when i hear them say it..i tell them to bick it off that wOrd fa real.....I never heard a latino say it.....Ook

my life really suckz right nOw

2005-01-23T07:20:55Z

//Today I really didnt do anything except go to a going away party..it was watever.....i got all dressed today thinkin i was really gone do somethin...gOsh daygo suckz.....and my friends do too sometimes they kinda fluked me......i hate to say it but i dont think ima miss em aftA june 17th 2005......I really cant wait till that date......

//and the DaygO niggas aRe Horrible....O mY gOsh they suck*middle finger to all the 619-858 niggas*.........just because of some of the niggas that i have talked to..I dont think ima ever date again...thanks alOt daygO niggas....why dO niggas have to act the way they do?.....yOu knO what its all niggas really.....

//the nigga i was feeling.....hmMm...what nigga.....I shOulda knOwn it was toO gOod to be true.....and best of luck to the future girls he mess with.....aNd i'm glad i didnt fall tOo deep for him...

ima leave yall with this i was tryna look happy..

lil619chick @ 2005-01-20T19:36:00

2005-01-21T03:44:46Z

2day was boring at skoo..Except for when i was sleep in 2nd pr and my teacher was calling my name to wake me up...but i though it was a dream.....then i told her i had a sleeping disorder..it was funny.........

//hMm that bOy i'm fEelin..nO cOmment...dont feel like typin bout it

hErE is my WhIp....its a lil uMm dUrty..lol

lil619chick @ 2005-01-18T21:09:00

2005-01-19T05:19:24Z

wELl uGhh...tOday...my momz got a new car and now i got her green honda acord..howeva you spell it...i think its a 98..bUt umm yea i'll be in traffic fa sho..when i get tha l'z.lol....in like 3 mo months but that aint gone stop me.... my thought of the day is...I HATE NIGGAZ...gosh man i alwayz fall for niggas that already got gurls...i got SUpa BAD LUCK I hope all the players get drafted.....well atleast i got a whip.....lol...

UmM....BOYz SuCk.....But i alwayz seem to fall for em..

2005-01-18T02:14:41Z

well ughh today i went to go get theseyEa i kno just now gettin em..well i alwayz do that when stuff gets old I go and buy it.....

and man i kno how i been talkin bout how much i hate niggaz well i think i'm fallin for one.....o gOsh..i'm tryin not to though...but hEy I cAnt help how i feel about sum1..Man o Man what am i gone do......if i fall to deep I hOpe and prAy he dont turn out to be just like all the othA dAygo niggaz.